Hurry up and Wait

Yesterday I was supposed to have my second chemo treatment, but it was postponed because my white blood count was too low. I was so disappointed. They keep saying that time is of the essence because my cancer is aggressive. But the doctor explained it’s important to attack the cancer, but better to attack the cancer with the right medicine than attacking it right now. It’s still a hard lesson to learn. 

In honesty, the hardest part has been the waiting. All the while every doctor we saw said that it needed to be addressed and yet the medical world’s perception of ‘soon’ and ours is miles apart. 

And yet, realizing the wrong medicine could end up causing more problems later. In the eyes of the doctors, waiting is best. To me, it’s an inconvenience as my rationale is let’s do something. Yet God in His wisdom wants me to wait. Those who wait on the Lord will mount up on wings like eagles and their strength will be renewed (Isaiah 40:31). Psalms 27:14 states “wait for the Lord, be strong, let your heart take courage.” Psalms 130:5 says, “I wait for the Lord, my soul waits and in His word I hope.” And the greatest consolation to my soul is in Exodus 14:14, “The Lord Himself will fight for you. Just stand still and be calm.” 

He's got my back. I contemporary song that rolls through my mind often (It’s Gemma’s favorite,” The Battle Belongs to the Lord.” Indeed, it does.