Tug of War
When you start thinking of all the things you should consider doing at the end of your life, it’s not fun to maneuver through all the things that need to be done. Although I’m married to an attorney, we need to meet with someone who specializes in end-of-life decisions. We did one years ago but we are in a different place and our kids are much older and will be affected differently. I need to go through all my stuff like jewelry, furniture, and all my yarn art, sewing, and plants. Wow. Too much to think about and none of my kids are very sentimental so I’ll probably talk to my nieces and nephews if they are interested. Poor Phil. I’m trying to sell off my complete collection of yarn and garments and items, so he doesn’t have to deal with all that stuff. He’s threatening to open a yarn shop to sell it all!!
It's amazing how much a person can collect over time and what we can live without if necessary. With all the decisions and even thinking about what I’d like for my funeral, it’s a very surreal experience. On one hand I don’t want to die. I don’t want to leave my kids and my loving husband. I love them deeply and don’t want to leave. One the other hand, I long for heaven and meeting Jesus face to face. No more night, no more pain, not more tears and no more death.
It’s like one foot is still here on earth and the other foot is almost in heaven.
It’s a Tug of War.
Tug of War
Verse 1:
Que the attorney,
finished the will;
Set the power of attorney,
organize the power of health;
Planned the funeral,
set the order;
Picked the songs in scripture
to be shared;
but while I'm prepared and ready,
I'm not ready
to say goodbye
Chorus:
So many things left unsaid,
Too many places yet to explore.
So many people yet to visit,
And too many things yet to accomplish.
So many milestones yet to cheer.
I'm not ready and yet I am to see God,
but not goodbye.
It's a tug of war.
Verse 2:
Labeling items of who gets what,
Selling things off piece by piece,
Deciding who inherits this or that,
Figuring what to keep or not,
Sometimes I feel I'm ready to see God,
But not ready to say goodbye.
Chorus:
So many things left unsaid,
Too many places yet to explore.
So many people yet to visit,
And too many things yet to accomplish.
So many milestones yet to cheer.
I'm not ready and yet I am to see God,
but not goodbye.
It's a tug of war.
Bridge:
Caught between two worlds
with one foot here and there,
Don't want to let go of those I love so dear,
Yet longing to see my Savior's face.
It's kind of feels unfair
To choose one and not the other yet,
it's really not my choice.
He decides the time and place.
Chorus:
So many things left unsaid,
Too many places yet to explore.
So many people yet to visit ,
And too many things yet to accomplish.
So many milestones yet to cheer.
I'm not ready and yet I am to see God.
but not goodbye.
It's a tug of war.
